Friends
I’ve always loved making friends around the world, and by starting a blog post like this, it doesn’t mean that I don’t like making friends or having them any more. No, no, no! I still like having friends, mostly because they are (almost) always there when one is needing them the most.
My friends have always brought me comfort and made me feel safe in places that otherwise seemed dangerous to me. And by being a friendly individual, I’ve always enjoyed being around them.
But the worst outcome that could happen out of a relationship between former friends is to abruptly end communications with one another.
And that’s exactly what happened with a friend of mine at the young age of 12.
I am going to name this “friend”, Tom, for the sake of that friend’s privacy and because I don’t want anyone finding their accounts and constantly harass them (which isn’t the first time that has happened, to be honest).
Since there is no context whatsoever on this topic, let me give you a quick summary about what has happened in these past 2 years.
The recap
Tom was transferred to another school, and I haven’t had any kind of communication with him.
I was worried about him and I wanted to know what he has been up to, so on a voice call with my best friend (you know who you are) I asked to make a group on Discord with them, so we can exchange drawings and talk to each other, just like the old times.
He, at the time, was Bisexual. And he gathered courage to tell it to me in a private call to tell me such information.
I was surprised that he would say something like that, so I decided to encourage him to continue his journey of self discovery. And everything was fine, until I lost communication, again, with him.
I was busy with homework and stuff, so I didn’t really push communication with him forwards.
This lasted about 2 months. Turns out, that they changed they username on discord, as they didn’t want to be called by their “laughable” username (I told him that it was a pretty cool name).
And I noticed something unusual. They wasn’t talking to us at all.
The bullying didn’t start until after they invited me to another group. Which seemed odd. Why all of a sudden? What has changed in them to start doing such things to me? What did I do?
The bullying grew worse and worse each month. It came to a stop after he, for the third time, lost complete connection with me.
Before the bullying even started, I created a nice little place where I could talk in revolt with my friends, even though they were using discord. It was called “Station’s Revolt Bridge” (and subsequently, “Station’s Discord Bridge”). One day, the server suffered a raid by 4 random individuals from an unknown server (maybe related to raiding servers that were related with furries), the raid lasted for an hour, they filled a total of 4 channels with racist, Nazi, and literal porn.
Me and my sister, @Bloom, handled the situation responsibly, and I gave a complete rundown of what happened in the past hour. Then, I got to delete more than 100 messages in a span of an hour (and even managed to break automod’s purge feature ;w;) on the revolt side of things. Seeing something that I’ve worked for, a safe space for my friends and I to talk and share content, just completely crumble down by a group of kiddos with nothing productive to do, is pretty darn disappointing and sad.
Shortly after, I reported the issue to discord, including attachments, User IDS, Message Logs, Audit Logs, etc… and the only response I received from the “Trust and Safety” team was a really, really short and vague response against the issue.
The bullying, the safe space I’ve made for the past year and this response from Discord themselves was more than enough to completely step out of discord and delete my account once and for all.
Childish Behaviour
Recently, Tom had a discussion with someone that I respect a lot, insert (yes, that insert), this debate started with a bunch of GIF spamming because I had a furry related channel on my server.
Then I told insert that “It was time”, and sent him an invitation to the server (I closed it shortly after). He found the channel the GIFs were and started replying to each of them with Burger King ads (Honestly, based), then Tom called out insert for being “from the US” and for being:
- Trans
- Furry
- Gay
- Lesbian
Which insert responded that he was 50% right and that he wasn’t even from the United States.
Then the debate shifted to who Tom was harassing, (Which it was me), and he kept saying my real name, which insert wasn’t understanding (Understandable, because he doesn’t know me that much, to be honest). Finally, Tom made the biggest mistake possible in a debate, the almighty “who asked” which insert appropriately responded that if Tom could show him something interesting that they have done. Obviously, he didn’t respond to his question because of how focused he was while “trolling”.
Then things began to slow down, because Tom didn’t have any arguments against his favour.
The thing that I found the most baffling to me is that they were Transphobic, Homophobic, and Anti-Fur (even though he was a furry), which I only knew about the Homophobic part.
He even tried to blame on revolt that they “converted” me into a transfem, which is hilarious
Closing Thoughts
I think that maybe I should’ve broken up as a friend with “Tom” a looooooong time ago, because of his lack of communication throughout the years and because of the constant bullying on Discord Direct Messages.
But I didn’t because I fear losing friends. It just doesn’t feel good. And I don’t want to be lonely in the near future.
Sneaky peaky at the future
Next blog post, I am going to talk about the process I am going through these days and my misadventures with dysphoria.
When will it be released? When I feel like it :3